Hey, diary. He looked at me today oh my goooood I swear he did. And not like how he looks like everyone else if THATS what your thinking because I can tell he looks different at me. I feel like he knows me like more than everyone else knows me and I think he thinks he knows me more than he knows everyone else that he knows if you know what I mean. Like, oh my god, I dont even know how to explain it. Like you know when someone looks at you and theres something in their eyes and, I dont know, why would you know? youre a book. LOL. Just joking but you know what I mean about his eyes, the way he was looking at me, god it just made me all tingly inside like how Ive never felt before. anyway this is what happened, right. we were in class and he was teaching us about something, I cant even remember what it was now LOL because I was kind of distracted by looking at him. Well you would be, wouldn’t you? And like, he asked us a question and I don’t know what that was either coz I still wasnt listening haha but I dunno I must have been looking daydreaming or something because he just KNEW that he couldnt ask me for the answer and thats when he was looking at me just looking at me like he KNEW and like I KNEW and I think he knows I love him and I think he was trying to say he loves me. Like not with his mouth but with his eyes, like he was just trying to say “I love you” but he couldnt say it in class because everyone was there and he’d get in trouble but I know how he feels it and he was definately trying to tell me about it. Now I dunno what to do though. how am I supposed to go and talk to him about it? Shouldn’t he come and talk to me? that’s what Im worried about now. like before how I was worried about how he felt but now im totally sure but I dunno what to do. I know its not allowed but what are you supposed to do when you fall in love? its not like you have any control over it is it? like you don’t choose who you fall in love with and I cant help that I love him and he cant help that he loves me. I need to see him outside school but I dunno how. I need to find out where his address is cause I know that if I could see him at home wed probably be able to talk about stuff properly and tell each other how we feel and stuff but I don’t know how to find out. he drives a car so I cant just follow him home LOL. ill think about it and keep you updated.
Infatuation
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